"I don't think of him as much" as I think of you.
Yesterday I sang the songs about you, songs about you & I.
Tday I realised I still love you.






I editted the pictures. :]



That's the ever so fucked up canvas.
Go on & laugh, everyone.
It sucks badly, I know. >:(

Yesterday was greeeeat (: Ignore the money issues & stuff, everything would out just fine. So I met Sassy & Yj @ Compass. Yj wanted a sunglass to cover the bruises she had on her face, but Sass told her to get it somewhere else. 77th street's one isn't as nice as those I saw, though. So we went to the interchange. Wanted to take 965 but uh, it takes damn long luh. So we decided to take cab. Went to the taxi stand, fucken long queue so we walked to the drop-off point outside Metro instead. Quite a few waiting for cab so Yj suggested on calling. So we did. It came in 5 minutes, hopped on, off to Yishun. [:

Got there, walked around. Wanted to bowl but a lot of school kids were there. I think it's CCA so yeap. We were on the waiting list & fucking hell, later on the receptionist called out Sass & mine name. -.- How embarrassing! We told them we don't want the lanes anymore 'cos we were eating & all. The auntie took damn llong to prepare the food la. Haha Sass was uber hungry. She nodded viguruously when we said we're gonna eat first. Looking @ them, ever so lovingly together; you came into my head. How nice would it be if you were here with me. Haha, ate & went to the arcade. Walked around, waited for Party World to open. Meanwhile, we decided to play pool. And I thought of you. Remember we said we'd go pool someday, with your group of friends? Played for an hour, three games. Amazing. Haha. Damn funny la okay. First game we cheated. We placed the balls anywhere we like. [: The rest we did not. Had fun though!

2pm & we went down to Party World. Sangsangsang until the rest came. SereneC, Tricia, Xiu Hua, Xiu Wen &Cecilia. (: We seperated rooms later on. Uber fun. We were singing like no tomorrow! Haha all the songs we knew, sang till we drop la okay. I sang the songs about you, or rather the songs I chose to sing reminded me of you & our loving memories. Left @ 530 while the rest stayed. Xw accompanied me out to flag cab. Heh, laogong I love you! Remember the heart thingy kay, I'll show it to you everyday (: YAY. Took Mers cab again! Twice this week. Yayness. Went home. Reek of cigs smell. Oomaigot, fucking disgusting. Did a little of my work & used the com. Dad came to fetch me. Thank God mom & dad didn't realised that I smelt awful. That smelly cig smell. Off to the Airport.

My heart raced as we got nearer to our destination.
But I thought I should be brave to face the reality & be strong.

Ate & met up with cousin Sally, her husband Jason, their kid Rhys & Pearlyn, my niece. [: Natalyn didn't come though. After that, went to meet up with Uncle Allan, Auntie Helen & cousin Embrys! Their family were there too. Funny people, I swear. Embrys' friends are so hugeee! One of them have a girlfriend & she's so pretty & tiny. Heh. Took photos & all. It's inside mummy's cam, gonna upload them soon I guess. 915pm & we walked to the gate & all. Exchanged hugs & goodbyes. I swear his hugs are so so so warmth! Amazingly Uncle Allan & Auntie Helen did not cry.. =/ I guess they aren't as close to Embrys as Godma Irene is to Terrence. Ahwellllll. Went home after that.

I'm glad we're fine now. I don't wanna lose a friend like you just because of a dumb issue. History is not gonna repeat, I hope. Though it's nice to know someone loves you but.. I just wanna hurt you no more. T'care, lloves!

Talk to me, please talk to me soon. =(
I've got so much to say, I hope you got my text.
Lie to me, tell me you've been thinking of me.

Ok I'll reply the comments later on or something. That dumb dickhead wants to use the com. I swear she's been pissing me off so badly, so so so fucking badly for the whole of last week till now. I had to even go into mom's room to hide okay. 'Cos I'll argue with her once I see her fucked up face. Bloody hell.

Please B, smile wide & say hi ok?
I'll be seeing you tmr :)
Blur & shy will never connect okay.

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I wonder if telling mom about us was a good idea. -.- She's asking if I'm talking to her, if she did talk to me. Ahwell. She updated her blog. I want to know the contents but I don't have the courage to. Fuckshitz. I wish she'd reply my textes. Ohwell, I know it best that she wouldn't anyway. :(

I miss you, X.
And I love you, y'know? So fucking much.
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I still think of you, yknow?
<3.